im not gonna get my hopes up.
neither am i going to expect you to live up to any expectations.
cause you know, i don't really wanna get hurt again...like the last time round.
im just gonna try my best to treasure you and not make you be the only one contributing.
i...promise?





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sidenote: willows said that im readable. aiyah sian lidat means i cannot be like kyouya and be those scheming genius liao. sianded! must try to hide my inner emotions!!
oh ya im moving to livejournal. bwahahaha.

you know, sometimes, even the toughest person needs someone else to lean on.
and usually, the ones who protect others, are the ones that need protection the most.
irony, irony, irony.
and somehow, the sadder a person is, the more that person will smile.
grin and bear it.
someday, it will cease to work.
then comes the fall of a tree that has shaded and protected you all these while.
why is it that humans only realise how precious something is to them only after they have lost it?
i don't know why, and i hate to think about it.


you know, sometimes misuke wishes that she has someone to lean on without facing ridicule. she wishes that she can be protected without people around her commenting that she is weak. and because of the fear of such malicious comments, she has spun a cocoon around her to shut herself from the outside world, and so that she can face everyone with a smile, even when it's not okay. but even the shield fails her at times, and that is when you see her becoming quiet, stop smiling, and stone at a corner. misuke wonders why recently, she has lost the urge to speak, to talk to others. why the anti-socialism? and why the sudden urge for a perfected heaven?and the urge for a needle and syringe.


the tree in front of the DMC cabin fell, due to a ternite infestation. Poor tree. This teaches us not to take nature for granted. Even the tree that has been there for so long can suddenly be gone.
I have a confession to make : I hate it when noobs come over to my thread to sa ya but heng la, she's gone now. oh wells. i wanna get the guitar soon..going to excelsior with kawai tmr.
lol. i ps-ed meiwei two days ago and when i went to 4M1 ytd, she was like super pissed at me la, and give me that cocked face, then yikai was like 'don't fight don't fight'. how amusing. so as usual, i acted nonchalantly like 'heck it's not my fault you took a long time being a loud-mouth and yelling to the world that you need a card'. i mean, don't waste my time la. i can be bitchy if i want to and this is one of the rare times. lol. so yes, i don't think i'm guilty, or that i owe her an apology. even if my conscience is telling me to. 'the very firstlings of my heart shall be the firstlings of my hand.' lol, not true at times, my dear Thane.

EWWWWWWWWWw ISP is the ultimate sucker!
so...infuriating cannnnn
any the way ive been getting headaches frequently..i wonder whats wrong..and i feel dizzy too! plus when i stand under the sun after recess, my arm starts to burn. after PE, i got a sunburn on my face. maybe im turning into a vampire? OMG nooooooooooo~~~
PTM was....hell. nevermind its over lets not dwell on it~~
i wan bubble tea with the minipearl! and green tea ice cream... yeunsee's mum said that i grew fatter )=
i want to get toned and lose weight! *slaps flabby thighs*
have you seen my stomach and flabby arms and thighs? im sure you wouldn't want to be faced with such a sight though ):
argh my face is getting oilier too ):
hey hey GR! if you are reading this..tell me when you're getting your guitar! i wanna see~ and hopefully be able to afford one by then ^^

i dreamt that i went for a lasik surgery.

and i still want to commit suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning or injecting an air bubble ^^

oh yea forgot to mention that i still have the decora thing for streetfest. 3 june. 2 more weeks away.(●´┏＿┓｀●)

clips and stuff = $20
shoes= $20 (i hope)

should i add a hat? right now, it looks like this:








you think how? needs clips and all that HEHEH. the shoes like not fit though )=
gonna get the lazy shoes and fabric paint some time soon

HOMG IM COSPLAYING KANON FOR EOY 2007! I CAN'T BELIEVE MY LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah, now i have more things to worry about.
let's see. estimate costume $200. each week save $20. will take ten weeks. argh. such a long time. ten weeks = 3mth 1 week = august or sept can get enough money
BUT what about the electric guitar? sept + 3mths = dec. by then i think sold out already.
okay i shall go into starvation mode.
kanon~~~~~

uhhhhhhh lets see.
okay i woke up quite late, around 9, and saw the message faust sent me, so hrm, got to meet her at a later time (YAY no need to drag my carcass so early in the morning) and eh, bathed, drew on my face, and went out. felt quite sick while walking to the mrt but heck la, if i faint, someone will call the ambulance la, right? so, trained for very long, unexpectedly late for decora shopping trip and meeting with faust. oh well HEHEHE. but what the eff nevermind lets not delve into it (runs away). talk cock for awhile about school and cold jokes. with faust, willow, xuri and GR. i like penguins more than ever. am so gonna go and save them when i grow up. then faust left to meet her friends. eee the mrt uncle made us move )= GR showed us a nice poem ^^ i like poems (unexpected hor? im not dumb or uncultured okay. wait now i sound like a yakult drink) er, then we went to bugis junction first..kero bea and cam joined us later. am horribly broke now so yea, this week dun jio me out, unless its for studies. (omg im an otaku!) i like my top though. eee why one day see so many punk farks de. disgusting can. ohoho i was entertained by their comments on those farks. hehehe. guailaned a few bengs trying to act visual at hmv XD SO FUN CAN! (omg that is so lolita erm i mean RORITA.) scuse me.
yui joined us at 5 (we went to pick her up) but before that, we went to selegie to see guitars. purty guitars. RAWR! then after that, we went to heeren en route to far east.(that was when the guialaning occured) yup yup saw a hiroto lookalike at far east !!!!!!!! cept that he had miku's haircut. lets not dwell on my reaction =_= HAHAHA (awkward laughter) then took neos..fell asleep at the neoprint machine =.=;
yui saw a salon which offers hair extensions for $200...its Japanese hair weaving technique..I WANT! sponsor me )))=

today, went to meet a seller at wdl stn and dug my money out to pay her...oh wells now i have smackers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg i failed paper 1 until like shit.
chinese.
can you believe it.
chinese.
let me die.

my mind is filled with thoughts. lotsa thoughts. before you dismiss this as another emo post, lemme tell you something: no, its not emo. my mind is just filled with lotsa 'nahbeys' and 'cheebyes'. i think this is qian yi mo hua la hor. jing zhu zhe ci, jing mo zhe hei. lol.

friday:
okay release of papers...lets see. hmm, we got back English and chemistry. let's start with the bad news. i failed my chem nobly, with 44 marks only. machiam si liao. then hor, omfc english i passed can! walau my hands just went CLAMMY before the release of English papers, and i almost DIED when i saw my name on the projector. only 2 people in the whole bloody level chose qn2 for the essay, and one idiot was me. and i think alot of us were being mean asses, laughing at the comment on the screen. oh well, go on, depend on your languages la huh. okay i shall stop. point to note : my darling TOPPED the whole level in English! *hugs* im proud of her~ so now shes my role model, and i'm going to strive to be as good as her. 3 more points to go! her mom was so nice to treat us to ajisen after Guides XD .
then hor then hor after school we had guides right, then i lost my guides skirt and belt somewhere luh, so i wore half sch u. was hoping that the sec3s wouldn't scold me =X omc im treating them as seniors =_= the whole point of the meeting was to see which people have leadership qualities and basically, we're pretty impressed by everyone! kudos~
however i was in a sucky mood due to chem and thus moped around like a spazzie. rotted in the haven-den for quite a long time until yijun came in and asked why i was isolating myself. ahh, shes so cute can. im going to kidnap her home.
so after guides ended, we walked to xinyi's house to fetch her and then took 190 to cck to eat ajisen! the service there is really =_= better don't go there next time. fangirled at comics connection too! then after that went home, bathed and slept.

saturday:
nothing much today luh, just went bugis with sb the yin zei (ohohoho) then er, eat at the hawker near the AHEM shop. nice food. okay la not really. thanks for the super sweet sugar cane juice =_= i know you want me to become fat. )= then after that walked around in bugis street and talk cock lor. eeee see za bor stuff very sian can. ._. yuan lai huimin also dont like skirt. HUIMIN! when you wna wear the skirt that wj gave you? prom ah? scarly no prom then...hohoho. then sb the perv ah, say that if he see za bors that normally don't wear skirts, suddenly wear skirts in front of him, or if he think about it, he will spurt blood.
huimin yao xiao xin ohhhh~
then we went to icon (ok la, alice's only la.) stupid drivers. then after that say want go marina but in the end go raffles. that place ah, machiam atas. not for mortals like us la. or at least teenagers. then went to search for apothecary and co (sorry make you walk wrong place) and bought my carmex. make me so paiseh go in by myself. then aft that he had to go his godma house so we trained back home =)